Saturday, December 1, 2012

Believe


In a season of believing.  My little boy is making me believe.  In him.  His abilities.  In the past few weeks he has learned to balance.  This means he can now walk only holding onto one of my hands.  He holds my hand so tight because he finally grasped the concept that if he lets go, he will fall.  We have been working on defensive protective abilities with him for 3 ½ years!  I have heard over and over again, “He doesn’t have his protective extension.”  He was not capable of saving himself from tipping over when standing and his balance was pretty much obsolete. 

(I have a picture but my annoying internet won't allow me to upload it.)

Not today.  He has balance like never before.  I realize what this means for him.  This opens up so many more opportunities for him.  He stands at the oven and holds on to the towel rack.  He is able to pivot to the fridge and back to the oven, play with his doggie by letting go of the handle.  The look on his face is amazing because it show,  “Hey ma, look at my new skills, I am nervous so stay close but let me keep trying!”  Tears of course well up in my eyes.  I have flashbacks of all the locations I have had him walk to, hold on to, and even practice falling from to learn what happens when one lets go.  I have had a lot of guilt with the ways I have pushed him to do this task, but feel so much relief today.  Every single minute of work was worth it.  I want to go show everyone his strength.  I am more than proud.  We continue to walk around the cabin, hold onto everything in sight and learn from a whole new view.  This view is awesome!!!

Believe.  We sure do this holiday season!!