Something changed. My little boy doesn't seem so little anymore. Matt and I are so proud of him that I can't even put it into words. As with any child, it is hard to predict their temperament, and how they are going to react. Every parent deals with it. Since Jace graced us with his presence, I have been scared to go out in public with the two of them alone. I have a fear of one of them freaking out and then trying to tend to one's needs and then not being able to care for the other. I can still hold and pick them both up at the same time, but it really isn't something I want the public to witness because it isn't so graceful. It is the survival pick up. It works. It isn't something I want to do, but have to.
We went away for the weekend. Our Summer time getaways are non predictable and throws the kids off. In the past, Carsen would lose it at some point and it would all go down hill from there. Not this weekend. He dealt with late nights, driving to fergus, loud noises at the parade, a million different stimulus, loud music at a dance and just no routine at all. He tolerated it and when we would look at him he had the look of, Hey mom and dad, I am a big boy and I can do this. Makes me want to squeeze him a million time over and over. That is what we did too. Lots of hugs and kisses for a little boy that had struggles and now a big boy that wants to be good.
This needs to be documented because this is a HUGE milestone in his life and in our parenting! I am feeling very blessed today!!
