Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Dear Carsen

Dear Carsen,

This has been such a big week for you!  I want you to know how proud I am of you.  You are such a brave boy.  Your ability to trust amazes me.  I push you into school and direct you in every which way and you keep your patience.  It makes me believe that you know exactly where you are headed, you just need help getting there.  You have learned to trust many new adults this week.  It would be so scary to look these strangers in the face and not know if they would be able to meet your needs.  They said you were hitting which made me so sad because you are not a hitter.  How frustrated you must have been.  I am writing you this because I know someday someone will read this to you and I want to make sure you know how hard I tried to teach everyone what you want, when you want it and how you request it.  I am so sorry things are so hard for you.  I felt so bad when you couldn't handle the loud music in the auditorium.  Although, you got to go swing, it still didn't seem fair that you had to miss out.   I am so sorry that things are so hard for you.  I promise you we are all working hard and getting something to help you communicate and I know someday it will click.  I promise!  You are surrounded by so many wonderful women.  The kids in your class think your braces and walker are pretty cool!  And I KNOW you love them all very much!  Belle has been a big helper and pushed you all the way into school, down the hall and to your classroom.  You have a wonderful friend!!  I love you so much sweetie and will never give up on you!

Love,
Mom

3 comments:

  1. Kelly you are amazing and a wonderful mom. This is such a heart filled letter that brings tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing it.

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  2. So sorry to hear Carsen having a hard time at school. He is someone very special and has a lot to teach those around him. Belle has learned so much and looks forward to seeing him everyday. As Mike Johnson would always say "Chin up, Love that smile!"

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  3. This letter is so touching. I loved hearing your words as you would tell them to Carsen. It's amazing to watch you balance your feelings of sadness, with determination, with hope, with pushing yourself and him.

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