Cake Reveal!

We have been waiting for this day for a long time.  I am not talking about waiting to find out the sex of our baby, but to experience having another child in our life.  Since Carsen turned one, I was ready for the challenge of another little one.  After a few years of being extremely patient through multiple genetic tests, we decided our chances were slim.  However, the chance of another child with special needs exists because nothing could be ruled out.  We obviously got through that hurdle and moved on.  I decided a gender reveal party would be a fun way to announce our new little baby.  We are so thrilled to be going through this whole experience again, that I felt it wouldn't hurt to have a little celebration.  Besides, I was craving cake, mexican food and some time with our closest family.

Our ultrasound day came.  Matt STILL didn't want to find out.  I did, and he had no say in this decision what so ever.  I was putting my foot down for once and finding out if it was a boy or girl.  I had multiple, I mean, almost everyone say to me, "You don't want to find out, you should wait."  "Are you sure you want to find out?"  "It is the only surprise in life."  I wanted to scream at most of them and say,  "We have already gotten a big surprise in our life.  It ended up with a c-section and a diagnosis of Cerebral palsy.  It's called, I want to find out because I won't have the extra time and energy to get things ready afterwards.  Ugh!

The ultrasound tech worked for a while at finding a good picture, wrote blue or pink in the card, and I mailed it out to the famous Gloria Heieie, our 80 year old Cake lady.  

She came up with this amazing cake...

Are we going to have another little boy or a precious little girl?

Matt was thinking pink, I was for sure it would be blue.

I decorated a cake table...

The details were all blue and pink...

This cake is screaming, "CUT ME OPEN!!!"

Big brother 

Is it a boy????












Or a girl???

TEAM BLUE... includes the grandma's, 2 aunties, 2 cousins, our good friend tate, and a brother via Skype on the pink phone!!  AKA...The smart ones!!

TEAM PINK...includes two grandpa's, daddy and my bestie Genie! Better luck next time! :)

My nephew Cohen and Uncle Mark were sick...Cohen is wanting another boy cousin and mark is thinking girl!

Good friend Zach and Carsen's buddy Cooper even went all blue!!!


We had all of our family lined up and my brother next to the cake via Skype waiting to see...aww...the suspense!!!!

IT'S A BOY!!!!

Surrounded by loved ones, we are blessed!

PROUD mommy and daddy!!!

I figured it was boy...but I still cried...I am so thrilled to have another little man in my life!

Carsen wasn't sure about all the hooting and hollering!!!

My boys...I couldn't be happier!

We continue to pray for our little guy!  There are worries but mostly a lot of hope! 

 Thank goodness for little boys!  

God. IS. Good!

Mother's Day

I saw the tears swell in a grown man's eyes as he prayed for the mother's on Mother's day.  It broke my heart thinking what it must be like to be without your mother.  No matter what age you are, you still need your mom.  I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful mother that is still so much a part of my every day life.  I listened to the family visit about what their mother used to do, what she would say now if she was still around and how they remembered her.  I know that mother's day is suppose to be lovely but for many people it is a hard day.  There is no greater love than the presence of your mother, and to fathom the thought of that being gone completely hit me this year.

My best friend, Genie, is a new mom this year.  She has missed her mom for years and there was a new light on today as her first mother's day.  Finally, she got to celebrate her little man.  I couldn't be happier for her because she is the most amazing person and has proved to be quite the little mommy!  I am so impressed with her astounding patience.  The love she shows for Tate is so heart warming and I could sit a visit with her about her little guy for hours.   I know her mom is watching over her and is so proud!

My own mom was away on vacation with my dad for the weekend so I did not get to be with her.  Although, on Thursday, we shopped our little hearts away and I enjoyed the time we spent together visiting in the car.  It makes me so happy to hear her say, "I feel like I am wearing you out."  I was exhausted by the end of the day and just needed a driving break.  So, she took over and kept me entertained.  Mom, is the type of person who usually listens to my life, but instead, I got to listen to her life, her goals, and new passions.  It was so refreshing to see this other side to her.  This mother's day, I feel so blessed to have her in my life.   I couldn't ask for a better person to call everyday with my complaints or funny stories.  She is always willing to listen and always ready to step in and "mother me" if she needs to.  My favorite part of her today is the relationship she has with Carsen.  She has so much love for him and he always loves playing with her.  Thank you for being such an awesome mother!  As always, you are an angel on this earth and many people are touch to have you in their life.

Last but not least, I love having a special day that is for Carsen and I.  I am the luckiest mom in the world right now.  Carsen is in another little "stage" and he is goofier than goofy.  Full of energy, smiles, giggles, songs and love.  He is making such great eye contact and completes tasks with so much purpose.  The songs he is singing are so beautiful.  I am not sure what songs they are, but I love to hear his happy little voice.  The love he gives me without even saying a word amazes me.  I feel so much love with his touch and smile.  I am so thankful for this stage he is in because I know it won't last long.  His favorite thing to do lately is to push mine and Matt's faces together to make us kiss, then when we kisses he squeals of excitement and repeats it over and over.  I am thankful for my little boy that shows me what life is about.  The small things are what count, patience is a must and a sense of humor helps a whole lot!  I love you my little buddy and couldn't imagine a day without your smile.  Thank you for being patient with me and loving me no matter what.  

He was my little helper with the garden yesterday...boys and dirt...

I will be 20 weeks this week and I can hardly believe it.  I am one blessed mother.  My belly is growing quickly!  Tomorrow is our ultrasound!  We will be finding out the sex but will be waiting until the Gender Reveal party next Sunday.  I can't wait to get a sneak peak of the baby's little feet and face.  

Happy Mother's Day to all of you wonderful mom's out there that read my blog.  You girls make me a better mom!! Love you all!

Our day

My pregnancy brain does not help me out.  I scheduled my last thirty one party at the same time Carsen had his first preschool concert.  I only cried a few times knowing I was going to miss out.  I snapped some pictures of him as he was heading out the door...

His class sang 5 little monkeys and some Hello song.  Matt was such a great dad for taking him.  I really struggled with the fact that Carsen wasn't going to know what to do like the rest of his friends.   But I am so proud of him for being such a good boy in front of a packed auditorium. 

He also got his first May day basket from Kye and Abram!! 

Today was the perfect day!! I got my buddy back!  We skipped out of daycare and spent every second together!  It started out with a morning nap.  And ended with an evening snuggle.

Carsen's favorite thing to do is go on his trike.

I am thankful for his hand strength and ability to hold on.  He loves to move his pointers up and down and does it all throughout his ride.

His shoes are attached to the pedals so that all we have to do is velcro his feet in and his legs move around in a bunch of tiny circles.  He looks like he is biking himself and his legs get the workout!

Saige is becoming his best friend.  I am still struggling with our relationship.

My big boy!

 

We got in a good session at therapy.  We worked on getting out of a chair to standing.  Sharon his PT was very impressed with his strength!  That makes my day!

Our next stop...Noonan Park to feed the ducks.  Cousin Cohen was on his way to meet us and Carsen couldn't be happier to see Auntie Alissa. 

This pic just brings me big smiles. 

And Cohen just kept running and running...

and running...(glad uncle mark was there to help Carsen catch up)

Cohen would stop at the water and was so curious as to what would happen if he got in...

oops...he found out...and he was a smelly mess!

Face forward in the duck pond makes for a silly face and a good laugh. 

Caught a quick one of them looking for the airplane.  It is so much fun to watch Cohen grow up.  I am reminded of my childhood because he is so much like his daddy.

We finished our evening with another trike ride and our evening snuggle.  What a perfect day!