Negative!

Today isn't going so well.  A sleepless day after a busy night shift and a few quirky mishaps in our day.  Nothing I can't get over with a little sleep.  That sleep is just going to have to wait for tonight...

I got that phone call today.  You know, that call I have been expecting for 6 months.  It is a phone call that I have NOT been dreading or anxiously waiting for.  It is a phone call that I have been anticipating.  A phone call that will let me get on with my life and continue to love Carsen for the adorable little boy he is, not the boy that is infected with a genetic disorder.  I say infected because the 3 years worth of blood draws and waiting for results made me feel like we were trying to find a disease that we could do nothing about.  Yes, really...nothing.  No matter how much we work at things, Carsen is going to do what he wants, at his time and to his potential.  What if they were to tell me his results were positive?  What would I do differently?  Nothing.  I would continue to carry on like he is the most perfect little boy I have ever laid my eyes on.  I would continue to talk to him all day long like he knows exactly what I am saying to him. 

It would be nearly impossible for me to describe the grief we have had that went along with our genetic testing.  The ability to make the right choices with each, expensive needle prick.  Why was I one of the mom's chosen to take care of such a special little boy.  Why would Matt and I be the parents of the undiagnosed Carsen T. Schmidgall?  Only HE knows, I guess.  My first question when I get to Heaven is going to be a long, lengthy one.  So, He better be prepared.

Our lovely genetic counselor, Janice, left the sweetest message I have ever received.  She said,  "I have Carsen's results and they are negative or normal, so call me and we can go through some details."  Details?  Who needs details.  Not me!  My brain is fried with words like deletions, duplications, array, chromosome, X-linked, mental retardation, developmental delays, disability, sequence, hybridization, genes, and Dr. Mendelsohn.  Enough is enough! 

I am happy to annouce we have completed our 3 years of genetic testing.  
We have put in our time.
We are free!

After just getting off the phone with Janice, she mentioned another geneitc test to come out in a couple of years that would sequence all genes.  I very politely said, "Thank you very much but we have completed our genetic tests and we are going to get on with bigger and better things."  She said this doesn't completely rule out if he has a genetic disorder.  In my book, they haven't found a thing wrong with his blood.  That clearly tells me he is perfect just the way he is.  Hallelujah!!!